A reminder in my struggle against alcohol, an impulse to drink or use isn’t a reason to pick up.
From a former pastor:
“What I have to tell myself over and over again: To act on my impulses is a denial of my real self that God created. To not act on them is an affirmation of myself.” (Loving Your Neighbor and Your Gender)
Affirming self is the reason I wound up being powerless over alcohol! Whatever was done to me, that excused my drinking, I made decisions based on what I wanted which later placed me in a position to be hurt. (AA Big Book, page 62-62)
God makes it possible to change . . . when I quit playing God, or the playwright who was staging and scripting everything. And refusing to walk down the path of what if? has helped me stay right-sized – not puffed up — and on my side of the street.
Impulses are a good thing when we turn ourselves over to the care of the only One who has a point and purpose in bringing me through the desire to drink.
“. . . Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do thy will . . .”
