Wanting special privileges is a character defect.
Working the steps, especially Step 3 helps restore the sanity of staying right-sized.
Because my body is not cooperating with doing little tasks I once never thought about doing, my emotions flare up, wanting special privileges for my enduring “hardships.”
Discomfort makes me want to be special. In some ways I want myself crowned at my own pity party.
In other ways, my wanting special privileges for problems in daily living that most people have is like a dry drunk.
Poor me, poor me. . . may lead to nowhere worth cost of going — literally or emotionally.
Because I usually forget to include the One person who can redeem a pity party, it helps to review the good orderly directions in Chapter 11, The Big Book: A Vision for You.
Take my eyes of myself!
Remaining sober . . . emotionally . . . means giving away what was given to me. (Chapter 11, The Big Book page 159)
Once upon a time:
We used to see problems as insurmountable; now we take responsibility for finding solutions. And we find slowly we can claim moments of real peace. (Emotional Sobriety I, page 7*)
|To let go and let God, I need only surrender my old ways to Him; I no longer fight nor do I try to control, but simply believe that, with God’s help, I am changed and affirming this belief makes me ready. I empty myself to be full of awareness, light, and love, and I am ready to face each day with hope.|
From the book Daily Reflections
Copyright © 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.
Thanks for reading! I appreciate your time!
Letting go of wanting special privileges, today, and holding tight to the one privilege I have by Grace through faith in Christ you have my
Love in Christ —
Sober and Grateful
* Emotional Sobriety The Next Frontier (Selected Stories from the AA Grapevine) Paperback – 2006 by AA Grapevine