A Lot Overcomes me!
On any given day, a lot can feel like it overcomes me! Senior citizenship, relationships, etc!
On those days I am overcome with gratitude that whatever else is troubling me, figuring out how to safely drink is not something I have to do.
Oh I might try just one drink . . . but not to enjoy a convivial drink with a friend, or to enjoy it as part of a meal.
I would be taking that one drink to see if I could get away with it; it wouldn’t be about friendship or food — I would just want to prove if I could get away with drinking one drink with no problems. Perhaps I could have another, and maybe just one more . . .
Yep — I was never a social drinker . . . ever.
Whatever else is going on in these crazy times, I am grateful that
- in His time, my Higher Power has removed the obsession to drink;
- through the 12 Steps He has shown me how to solve problems I thought only alcohol would relieve;
- the fellowship shows me how to enjoy life; even when problems show up I have friends.
It’s good to glance back and remember — I had some great times — but, remembering how that last year drinking felt is good.
It felt like me caught up in a hamster’s wheel trying to balance life and booze.
God, I am glad I could make that choice — especially because I often made choices to protect my drinking.
Gratitude — practicing that attitude — even faking it until I can truly feel it — is what I choose.
G.K. Chesterton said gratitude is happiness doubled by wonder.
That’s about right.
Gratitude levels out the rough spots in the daily walk —my own emotional pot-hole repairer.
Hey— I am just grateful I can walk — into a meeting and find a chair.
What overcomes you, friend? How are you doing?
Love in Christ,
Sober and Grateful